Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Birds and Flowers

Truth is a funny thing. It doesn’t matter in your own mind until it affects you. Truth is truth and will not change, but it is funny how a person can have no concern for it until it affects them. Even if you believe something is true, when its implications and consequences actually hit home and sit on you, then it becomes such a different type of truth or belief that you have. I have always pulled the Christian card when things were going wrong and say, “I trust the Lord, He will provide!” This is a great thing to say, but an even more powerful thing to actually believe with all that you are made of. Lately I’ve been going through this little funk of stress, doubt, questions, worries, and fears. Where will I be in a year? Do I feel like I am in the right place? Do I feel God is using me? How in the world am I going to pay rent this month? What if things don’t work out in Indy, then what? When I graduate I’d like to move somewhere new, but what if God doesn’t want me there? How am I supposed to survive if my budget doesn’t make sense on paper? I’m sure you are already pulling your hair out and that is why I keep mine cut so short, honestly, because I want to rip it all out when I think about all this. It is maddening to worry about all of this. Worry? Yes Worry!

I get these feelings of just giving up and sleeping all day. When I worry about all this stuff my attitude changes, my prayer life is horrible, and my time in the Word is non-existent. You would think God would say something about this right? Ding ding ding ding, He did! I knew He did but this statement really hit me yesterday and tore all these burdens off my chest and freed me from insanity! Jesus is talking to the disciples in Matthew Ch 6 and in verse 25-34 goes on with this chat about not worrying. I’m sure He had heard them worry about stuff in His time with them. So Jesus gives them practical examples of how the Father cares for the birds and flowers without them worrying. Then He infers with a rhetorical questions, “Are you not much more valuable than they?” Jesus then says don’t run around worrying about all these things, what to eat, what to wear, what to drink, as the heathens do. “Seek first the kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own (Matt 6:33-34).” God plans are the one’s that will be done anyways. They are always right. Proverbs 19:21 says that many are the plans of a man’s heart but it is the Lord’s that will prevail. I need to stop planning and trust God will provide me with my needs when I am seeking His kingdom first. We often like to give the disciples a rough time for being thick headed but I often wonder if Jesus would like to give me a swift slap to the back of the head when I miss beautiful truths like this. May you submit your worries to God and trust He will provide for you as He does the birds and flowers.

1 comment:

  1. hey! it has been more than a day since you posted a blog...i am beginning to worry :) are you okay?! haha!

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