Thursday, October 25, 2007


I received my letter back from the Police Department up here. They basically said thanks for your time, but we are not interested (in a lot of other words that took up an entire page of paper). I just wanted to keep you updated on that process.

The Fire Department stopped their process due to some political things happening in the city, but will be sending letters out for the physical test and second oral interview sometime soon.

I’ve come to realize though, that I have no career goals in any way and that I’m apathetic towards this whole Fire/Police Department deal. This is not to say I am not goal oriented or have no future plans though. My main goal in life is to be following Christ, I feel like I am lead by Him to start churches or be an integral part of a pasturing team to help reach urban cities. So my goal is very vague, but so clear as well. It is vague in the sense of I cannot say for sure what will happen in 5 years or where I will be, it is clear because I know that the Holy Spirit will guide me and provide for me what I need.

I am reading this book by Erwin McManus called Soul Cravings and one of the main thoughts he brings to light is that we often do not pursue our dreams because we have fear. Fear in itself is form of not trusting the Lord fully. So one thing I have been thinking about (more than praying, which is a problem in itself, but I need to pray about it more) is trying to raise financial support to be able to not work and help with Indy Metro Church and whatever other church in the future full time. I’m not sure why I don’t just put together a letter a start sending it out, but I need to pray that I would start this process in anticipation of being done with school. When I finish with college I have no idea what I am going to do because there is nothing holding me hostage in Indianapolis. I don’t feel strongly about leaving or staying, it’s almost like I’m in this stage of transition in preparation for something big. Whatever that is I have no idea, but pray that I am ready.

Please join my in prayer about the possibility of doing full time ministry and becoming fully funded by churches and/or fellow brothers or sisters. I want to do so much for the Lord and be used in huge ways, but it makes it hard to do if I am scared to go…

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